New Year Funk!

Hi everyone. I know I havent posted in a while, and probably no one even checks my page any more, but im in a funk and I thought blogging might help.

Well it all started New years Eve. A friend of mine and I went out to a club we go to often to meet with some other friends. Well This friend of mine had a strong disagreement with one of our other friends over the phone early in the night. This kinda set the mood for us. We were trying to be upbeat, even though this convo really put a damper on it.

Well then, this person that I respect and admire greatly, did something that completely offended and upset us. I wont go into details, but I will say after knowing this person for several years and thinking we actually were good friends, I was shocked and Crushed to find out that I (and my friend that was with me) was just another random person who happens to frequent the same establishment.

Now I really dont think I was being melodramatic. Some people might. But even though what happened was a tiny little thing that most people would not have noticed. It struck me like a slap to the face, to the point that I got up and left 2 1/2 hours early after paying 12 bucks to get in.
Well this person has actually sent an email to my friend, (No I didnt get one) asking what he done. (we did tell him before we left, but he didnt see why we were so upset) He thought that what he did was justified by him being tired, but it couldnt really be explained away by that. He really just didnt see that what he did was totally uncool.

Anyways Since then I havent been able to pull myself out of this funk.
Sure other things have happened that are keeping me down, but this one thing is at the head of it all and I dont know how to get past it.

So much for a Happy New Year. Maybe I just need a Vacation.

Democrat or Republican?

I am starting to worry a little about the fate of Life as we know it! I have faith so I have to hold on to the belief that God is not going to Allow Obama to become our president. However I still cant help but be concerned.

It seems to me that alot of people dont even really bother to watch the debates or the news.
"My father was a Democrat and So am I." This is crazy. Just because a persons family is democrat or republican doesnt mean you have to be that. It does happen that way most of the time. But I for one have to watch and learn and then support my on opinion.
Times are changing and its not all for the good.
The amount of celebrities that are supporting Obama just boggles the mind and what is even worse is half of them are only supporting him because of his race. This is insane.
What kind of leader can he be?
I cant say with absolute certainty that McCain is the best choice either. But considering the alternative, he is the closest thing in my book.
I just wanna shake people and say "What are you thinking?" Are you even thinking? do you have any idea what this man stands for and what he is? But I dont much, cause with some people its just like pulling teeth. Their gonna go with what they have been brought up to believe and that is that.
I just cant help but feel like any God-fearing person will not stand for Obama to be elected. But he's made it this far so Im left to wonder, Is there enough God Fearing people left on this earth to pull this off? Lord I hope so!

Enough is Enough

The news of the past month or so has been horrible. But the story I find the most disturbing and heartbreaking is the story of Jennifer Hampton. Jennifer was a 21 year old girl from Waterloo Alabama, who was in Knoxville Tn working to help train people to open a new Mama Blues in Knoxville. She was staying in a Days Inn. On september 20 she was reported missing.
It has been determined that Jennifer was taken from her room during the early morning hours. After a 3 day search for her, a local fisherman found her body in a lake about 10 miles from the hotel.
Jennifer's accused Killer is a 19 year old man who is in this country illegally. He provided police with a bogus Social security card. He was working at the hotel Jennifer was staying at, Illegally, and he entered her room using his own key card. His Wife provided Key evidence in the case, when she turned over his Bloody clothes to police. The clothes he was wearing on the morning of sept 20th. The blood was determined to be Jennifers.
Now for the record, I do not know Jennifer, but for some reason this story has really struck a cord with me. I feel personally violated. I am having a terrible time coming to grips with this. I dont know if it is because I have a 19 year old daughter or just the repulsiveness of the whole sick story, but im struggling.
I can only Imagine the terrible pain and grief this girls family is suffering through. Words cannot express the emotions I am feeling and my heart truly, truly goes out to this family.
Jennifers killer must be punished severely! There is no question. Her death is like a strike against Americans everywhere.
I am truly sickened, but this is multiplied by the fact that this was done by an Illegal Immigrant!!! America, we have stood by and let them take our Jobs, They have taken our Freedom and Now they are taking our CHILDREN.
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!! I dont know what I can do as one person, But I feel like I have to take a stand. We've lost so much already. Illegals come in groves from Mexico, and we let them. They just keep coming and coming and their taking over everything. We are being forced to adapt to THEIR way and it is wrong. If they want to live here. They should do 2 things Learn the language, and get their citizenship. PERIOD. If they cant do this in 1 year, then lets ship them back to mexico. WE shouldnt have to change for them, This is American and if they dont like it the way it is then I say get the HELL OUT.

Now dont get me wrong I dont have a problem with all of them. I have a few friends that are Mexican, they were born here and they have made America their home. Their family has adapted to the Americans ways and values and they are living the American dream more or less. They are not trying to change people they are just trying to have a life. They are good people who were brought here by there parents and they are as much Americans as I am.

It the ones who dont have any desire to become american that pisses me off. The ones who want to come here and work Our Jobs, while we are laid off and struggling, Draw food stamps, while we cant even feed our own family, force us to speak spanish to communicate with them, because they refuse to learn english, and work and live tax free so they can save enough to move back to mexico and retire, that pisses me off.
No I dont know what Im gonna do yet, But I for one cannot stand back and let this go. I feel like I am personally responible for taking a stand and that is what Im gonna do. Enough is Enough America, Lets take back what is OURS!

Top 10 Predictions

Top 10 Predictions No Matter Who Wins the Election
1. The Bible will still have all the answers.
2. Prayer will still work.
3. The Holy Spirit will still move.
4. God will still inhabit the praises of His people.
5. There will still be God-anointed preaching.
6. There will still be singing of praise to God.
7. God will still pour out blessings upon His people.
8. There will still be room at the Cross.
9. Jesus will still love you.
10.Jesus will still save the lost when they come to Him.
ISN'T IT GREAT TO KNOW WHO IS REALLY IN CONTROL?!!

Have a Penny!

Well I know I have been slipping, Im sorry, but well drama drama, it comes and goes week in and week out. Anyways thats another blog.
Today however, I would like to talk about pet peeves, It seems I add a new one daily every since I have been working at my current job. So today Im gonna share a few.

For those that dont know I work in a food mart store. Yes we sell alot of gas too. So with the gas pumps a mere 30 ft away from me, I would have to say my Number 1 peeve of the day is....
People who smoke while pumping gas! Now I am a smoker, But I have Never, ever smoked while pumping gas, and to watch this, while I standing 30 ft away really pushes my buttons.

Number 2 also pertains to smoking, I can say these things cause I do smoke, but I dont do these things! People who throw there cigerettes on the ground 2 ft away from the ashtray provided outside. This is a minor peeve, well its not really even a peeve, its just a "why'd you do that stupid? shout out"

But the main thing that bugs me since starting this job, is just an observation. and the title to the blog.

How many of you have seen the have a penny, leave a penny, need a penny, take a penny dish, most foodmarts have on their counter.
Notice this does not say take a few take a bunch if you want we'll buy your lunch.
No it says take A penny! and If someone is 4 or 5 short I dont mind, but its the people that will take a dozen to keep from breaking a dollar that really gets me.
Today a man came in and bought a 74 cent item he had about 92 cent in his hand, but he doesnt use that, instead he takes his 2 pennines and 2 more out of the dish and then gives me a dollar.
End result, he got back 30 cent in change. rather than give me 75cent and getting a penny back, or even giving me 72 cent and using 2 from the dish he opts to do it that way and gets 3 cent back instead of one.
It really didnt make sense to me, but I just smiled, even though I had these thoughts racing thru my head. And I think was it really just a conveinence thing for him, or was it greed.
The world may never know!

Finally a week without Drama!

Well its been a pretty good week. Now it aint been perfect, but aside from some minor distractions, It was pretty stressfree.
I was pretty busy all week and I think I have finally conveyed to my "employees" that I am after all the boss and Im not going anywhere, Im also not gonna do everything for them.
That was the problem I guess. They expected things to be done a certain way and I was busting my butt trying to make things easier on them and it went unnoticed.
So this week they had to come in and do their own work and I didnt go the extra mile and overstock and stuff for them and they realized how much I had been doing and I think they might of realized they had messed up when they did what they did.
Although I do think that the stir was caused by only one of them and the rest just kinda got sucked in.
But even better is the problem starter has decided to move on. Meaning this is her last week.
Yes I will have to hire and train someone new. But I think that will turn out for the best.

DQ hasnt been bugging me this week, thats another plus. I think she finally realized that I was serious when i said I would support HER while she was living at home, But not if she wasnt.
I will always be there to help out. But not while she is doing it all and her gf and her family is taking advantage of her.
I tried to explain to dq that you have to stretch your money when you dont know where the next $ is coming from. I think I finally got through.
I just dont have the money coming in that I used to, Its not all because of the job change.
We've had to make adjustments. But I still wouldnt go back to my old job it just wasnt worth the headache. Someday i might go back to the same kind of work, but never back to the one in Russellville thats for sure.

Anyways it was a good week, the only thing that could make it better would be if that Money tree in the back yard would start blooming, other than that i cant complain.
and How was your week?

Im tired of working

Im so tired of the day to day, living hand to mouth routine.
No I dont think I am one of the chosen few who should be able to sit back and not have to work for a living. Im just saying Im tired of trying to keep my head above water and never having anything left over. No money, no time, no energy.
And Im tired of being expected to do everything for everyone, all the time with nothing in return.
Now I know were not supposed to expect returns for favors and stuff like that. That isnt what I am talking about. Im talking about kids and others thinking that I should do everything and get nothing back. Cause "Im the mom thats why". My own fault, but for too long I have let things go. My kids have friends who will "drop by" just to get a drink or something. Now Im not talking about the friends that are regulars here, Im talking about the ones who drive by on 4-wheelers on their way to the track and think Oh Ill stop here and bum a drink or a meal. and before I know 1/2 a case of sodas are gone to people I dont even know.
Then you got the kids who think they are smarter than I am. You know, you tell your kids one thing and then you hear "so and so said it was like this" I dont care what they say unless there paying for it! If its costing me money than my opinion is the only one that matters!!!!
And then theres DQ who thinks she can move in with her GF and her family and not only will I continue supporting her, I will support them as well.
In fact I have went without for 2 weeks to give her grocery money, only to find out that she has been eating at McDonalds and Jacks everyday.
Pissed doesnt even begin to cover it.
And then slugger hasnt done anything all summer. I cant even get him to take the garbage out. But he tore his 4 wheeler up riding it til it couldnt be rode and now I have to buy brakes for it and wouldnt of even known that if I hadnt of got on it and he comes in today and ask why he cant ride it. "His Buddy said he didnt need brakes to ride" (I actually heard this conversation taking place while the buddy was helping himself and another kid I didnt know to sodas) I said the brake pads are GONE meaning there is no protection for the rotors which means If he rides it I have to replace BOTH, STUPID!!! I didnt call the friend this but I thought it.
Yes I am in PMS mood. And if someone rubs me the wrong way, You'll know it. Just watch the news!

Update

Well I didnt quit my job. though I have to admit, it took alot for me to go in Monday.
I did find out what was being said and who was saying it, I really dont know What I did to this person to cause her to want to tell such blantant Lies with out any thing to back it up.
But I guess if she can live with herself and I dont have to live with her then Oh well.
I only have to see her for a few minutes a week (which makes this really freaky) But I pretty much think she wont be around very much longer. And that is just as well.
Im not saying that I love my job and Im gonna stay there forever, cause If something better paying comes along, well i will have to follow. But Im not gonna put up with her telling lies, and they know it. So if it continues, one of us will have to go, and I told them that, so nobodies in the dark on how I feel.

Oh drama, some people cant live with out It! Sigh!!!!

My Two Cents

Ive seen so many things, in the papers, on peoples blogs, comments left on AOL. About welfare, food stamps, WIC programs, ect....

While I know there are people out there who do abuse the system, and sadly I even know a few of them personally, (even though we are not friends).
I do believe people shouldnt Judge other people.

EVERY BODY has had to have some help at one point in their life! Whether it came in the form of welfare, financial aid, or moma and daddy loaning it.
I do not believe that any one can say they have never needed help from someone.

"Let he who is without sin cast the first stone".

I actually read a comment on AOL from a reader who said that baby formula should be cut off the WIC program. Because "after all" if they can afford to have the kid they should be able to feed it". This made me so mad I had to get up and walk away from the computer. Heaven help this person if they would have been standing in front of me when they said it.

I have read and heard some say, "their tax dollars were feeding these kids"

Well ok that may be true. But the IRS is gonna get that money one way or another, you have to pay taxes. So shouldnt it be put to good use HERE in America. I mean Come on people, we have spent BILLIONS of Dollars in EVERY other country, why are you bitching about spending it here.

I have been one of those people that had to have help. After the death of my childrens father, (while I was attending college to be able to find a better paying job) I had to quit school and go back to work at a factory. It took alot of budgeting to pay for child care and everything else that comes with life.
But that was not how it was supposed to be!! It was supposed to be different and circumstances beyond my control changed that.

"Judge not that you be not Judged"

"Before you come to my house and sweep off my doorstep, Take a good look at your own".

If you dont know the life someone else is living, and you have not walked in their shoes. Then keep your opinions to yourself.
Especially in public!!!!

New Job

Well, I got another job. No I am not a job jumper, I was offered a better paying position with the same company, just at a different location.
Seems like fate was stepping in to help me make more money.
So I took it. Ive been on the job 3 weeks and while I dont love it. the hours are better (day shift) and the money is better so its all good right? Wrong.
Yesterday I found out that the girls who work for me have been complaining about me to my boss. (I found this out from one of them, who says she hasnt said anything, hmmm)
Now I have been running myself ragged for 2 weeks trying to do a good job and they are telling him that I am not doing my job.
I was so mad when I heard this that I literaly gave myself a headache, now im just upset to the point that I do not even want to go back.
But being the only breadwinner in a family with 2 teenagers and one about to start college, I cant afford not too.
So I have been racking my brain all day trying to decide the best way to handle this.
Im still up in the air about it, so I guess I will just go in and play it by ear.
And if i have to resign then Oh well, what ever happens will happen.
Im not going to work with people who dont respect me. and Im not going to work at a place im miserable at. So Ill just have to see what happens.
After only 3 weeks on the job I really dont think it was fair of these girls to "tattle" on me without even giving me a chance. Worse still is one girl only works weekends and she said a pretty awful thing and Ive never really even been around her.
So I guess tomorrow can go one of 2 ways. I can go in and admit defeat and quit.
Or I can go in and find out what exactly Im doing wrong and fix it.
Either way some people are probably going to see a side of me I reserve only for those who Piss me off, So it should be an interesting day.
Ill try to update soon.

Yes, its been awhile

To my loyal and faithful reader Im sorry I havent posted in a while.
Of course you already know I got a job. And while the hours are not my favorite and
the pay isnt up to my usual standards, its not a bad job.
I really dont have to work hard at all.
I am one of these people that knows better than to question fate. I believe this is the job I am supposed to have for right now, even if I have to struggle to make ends meet.
But my stress level is way down and that is a major plus.
With all the lay-offs in the area I know that I am lucky to have a job.
Even though after I pay for gas I really dont make much more than I could draw from unemployment, That could only last for so long, So I had to get back on the job wagon.
The fact that I had to take such a pay cut, because I suspect I was black-balled at the other places I applied to, is my main stress at the time. And even so I figure "what goes around, comes around" So some people better watch out.
I am trying hard not to let that get the best of me.
So I have to work tomorrow, I have been off for 2 days and enjoyed myself immensely.
So Maybe now that I am getting the routine down, I will be able to get on here and post more often.

Until then....

Thought for the Day!

"Light travels faster than sound...
that is why some people appear brighter,
until you hear them speak!"
--Larry the cable guy

Thought of the Week!

Well Since I had no comments, and nobody sent me a favorite quote,
I had to pick my brain and come up with a thought for the week.
So In Honor of Mothers everywhere, I chose this one!

"A mother is the truest friend we have, when trials, heavy and sudden, fall upon us; when adversity takes the place of prosperity; when friends who rejoice with us in our sunshine, desert us when troubles thicken around us, still will she cling to us, and endeavor by her kind precepts and counsels to dissipate the clouds of darkness, and cause peace to return to our hearts."
--Washington Irving

I Hate Lawnmowers!!!

Really, I really do hate lawnmowers!
Why you ask, because I have neighbors
and the Bible tells me to "Love thy neighbor",
so therefore I must Hate the lawnmowers!
It took me about 5 years to break my dad from
mowing the lawn at 6 o'clock in the morning,
How long do you think it will take me to break my neighbors?
And to top that, one neighbor mowed from 6-8,
the other from 8-10.
And the very worse part is the second neighbor was
Mowing the Church yard.
I. Cant. Win.

Happy Friday!!!

Plus Size Counterfeit

Here I go off with a pet peeve, do you ever have those days?
I was on Ebay checking out some plus size dresses,
not really that I wanted to buy one, just browsing.
Anyways standing on the beach looking positively radiant
in a full length formal wedding gown was a size 4 model.
Now this dress was amazing and the model wore it well, but...
It was supposed to be a plus size gown.
Yes it was one of those places that sell all sizes, but the ad was for a plus size.
I dont want to see what a gown looks like on a skinny model.
If I want to buy it for me I want to see what it will look like on someone my size.
(no Im not buying a wedding dress, your missing the point,
I was also looking at prom dresses cause I have one to sell).
Go into a store and look at the plus size clothes,
on the skinny mannequins with a belt looped around it twice, it looks real sexy.
We cant all be skinny, and for those of us plus size people out there we already have to pay double price for clothes, But to see a small person modeling a plus size outfit,
just adds insult to injury.
And do you know whats almost as bad,
seeing a person who wears a size 14 being referred to as plus size.
14! Id love to be in a 14.
But too many doctors, and whatever have brainwashed people
into believe if they arent a size 5 they're fat.
Oh No I wont even get started on that.

Until next time...

Thought for the day!

"Never explain yourself, your friends dont need it,
and your enemies wont believe you anyway!"

I do live by this, pretty much.

Thought for the Day

"Today gives us a chance to love,
to work, to play
and to look up at the stars."
--Henry Van Dyke

Thought for the day!

"To the World you may be one person,
But to one person you may be the World."

Sample Link

Go here to get a sample of snuggle fabric softener.

Freebies/samples

I love freebies. especially those freebies that, if you were to buy them and not like them you have wasted $$$. So everyone that blogs knows about walmart.com, but for my friends that dont blog they might not. So I am doing this blog for them.
Today thru startsampling.com I rediscovered the samples at Walmart. I didnt realize until today that you can go to walmart.com, and click on the Instores now pull down, and click on free samples to view ALL the samples they have for the day.
Today I sent for several samples, including: Crystal light single drink mixes, Fiberone caramel delight cereal, Ban anti-perspirant, and beneful fiber supplement.
Its only 4 oclock so I am still looking at some more samples and freebies. When I find them, I will pass them on.

Until next time...